Pharmakon Lady

I thought I got fully unified,

with her,
truly one,

in the paradise,
so wise, so deep, so dark

mesmerized,

tears of laughter,
no morning after.

Until now,
I was alone again,

mentally and mysteriously fighting the endless war;

losing,

dragging the self
through the death of doubt,

and the spheres of guilt;
all that wondrous beauty spilled.

I don't need her,
and I don't want her
to be a phase
melting in ecstatic days;

cosmic touchers in a maze
open to their highest ways
seeking the seraphic gaze
until the magic shiver stays

But I wonder?

If they see it, and can make it,
why don't they undertake it?

child so blue,
have no clue,
mystics and
their work to do.

Always remember.

To feel with no eyes
to taste with no tongues,
pharmakon lovers
breathing through each other’s lungs.