Inseparable opposing images
There is so much emphasis in spiritual communities on letting go, surrendering, embracing the unknown, being "positive"...
But what about the parts of you that don't want to?
The parts of you that are scared of change.
The parts of you that feed off of negativity.
The parts that don't yet fully trust the process, don't see a way forward...
The parts that prefer the safety of the familiar--even when the familiar is no longer serving you--to the unpredictability of the unknown...
The parts that resist, act out and self-sabotage...
How do you treat those sides of yourself?
Do you judge yourself as "weak"?
Do you blame yourself for not being "positive" or "spiritual" enough and to still have to be dealing with anger, fear and jealousy instead of the constant Bliss you are "supposed" to be experiencing?
Do you push on regardless, hoping that these parts will eventually disappear if you just push them away and focus all of your energy on being positive?
I am starting to see that this only creates further polarization and splitting of the Self. More "good" and "bad" parts, more resistance to what is true NOW and more chasing of some future idealized state of perpetual happiness....
Never enough, never good enough, never here, always on your way somewhere else to be someone else...
HOW EXHAUSTING!
This is unbearably painful for the Self to experience. This pain feeds the parts of us that resist and self-sabotage. These parts act out so that we may finally look our pain in the eye and say...
I see you.
I feel you.
I am so sorry for abandoning you.
I AM HERE NOW to hear what you have to tell me.
"Through the gateway of feeling your weakness lies your strength
Through the gateway of feeling your pain lies your pleasure and joy.
Through the gateway of feeling your fear lies your security and safety.
Through the gateway of feeling your loneliness lies your capacity to have fulfillment, love and companionship.
Through the gateway of feeling your hopelessness lies true and justified hope.
Through the gateway of accepting the lacks in your childhood lies your fulfillment now."
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Transcript of The Pathwork of Self-Transformation by Eva Pierrakos